So, a crossroads has presented it before me.
As you may know, I hit the ground running this NaNoWriMo. I hit 10,000 words in the first 3 days and remained ahead of the deadline for the first week. But now I've run out of steam, and I can't seem to push past 15,000. I'm far behind the expected number of words at this point.
I don't necessarily think I am lazy, although it is true that I will often bail on novel ideas when they get tough. In "Delusions", the story that I am working on now, I made a loose outline, I made in-depth character descriptions, I did all the prep possible ... I just didn't factor in one thing: my main character is boring as hell, and I've been hating him more and more the more I write ... or try to write.
It's going to take a lot to get me out of this gridlock. It's not writer's block. It's the fact that I've become totally disillusioned with what I'm trying to write. Thankfully, though, I have a contingency plan ...
I have a work-in-progress that's been going on for years, which is currently about 70,000 words long. It will probably take another 35,000 words before it's finished, which is the exact amount I need to finish NaNoWriMo. Should I go finish this novel, which I already love, or go at a snail's pace with this idea I now - if not hate, need to give a complete makeover - at the risk of my sanity? I feel like I have to love something to write it with any kind of skill or passion, or is that just quitter's talk?
I'm too busy today to write anything, but I will update the blog in a couple of days to see where I go.
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